Out of control.

Saturday, November 16, 2013
Casual Friday selfie, officially back in my 16/18s (from 18/20)!
Down 2 more pounds, yet I have been struggling. No, not with my diet or workout plan - but, with stress. If it's not a deadline looming over my head, it's a family crisis or a personal one. All of which lands on moi. As my dear friend says, "Keep me near the cross!" Whew!

When I feel like I control little, and am merely reacting to life's demands - I focus on what I do have pure control over. And you already know what I'm about to say... FOOD. An odd empowerment gesture, eh? Binge eating (actually defined as a loss of control) solves no problems. But, damn it if it doesn't, for a moment, feel as if it does. These past few weeks were different, however. I didn't stick strictly to "plan," (do I ever?) but I didn't let my wellness journey go by the wayside amidst the low-budget reality show I was going through.

I'm going to keep trucking. Because, in fact, I DO have pure control over something else; getting healthier and losing this weight!


The food...

Mini Grocery Haul = Produce, Snacks, Lunch + Breakfast Goods
I need more veggies. Or ways to slyly sneak them into my meals. Yes, I know I'm 28 and not 8 - but, I'm thinking about juicing for a bit. We'll see.

Also, daily, before I leave for work, I send myself an email; accessible on all of my devices to remind myself of when I need to eat and what. Weekly preparation wasn't working for me, the daily approach is much more suitable. It allows me to not have to deviate too much, if events or other plans arise.

Daily Format Screenshot

Cream of Wheat, Almond Milk, Strawberries - Monday's Breakfast

Sushi Rolls, Cucumber Slices - Monday's Lunch

Kiwi Fruit w/ Chopsticks (#missingforkstruggle) -Tuesday's Snack

Special K Protein Shake (French Vanilla), Globe Grapes - Wednesday's Breakfast

Campbell's Beef + Veggie Soup, Whole Grain Ritz Crackers - Wednesday's Lunch

Fruit Cup, Chix Ceasar Salad Wrap - Thursday's Lunch

The workout...

I told you the last time we chatted, that I was going to start the Supreme 90 Day workout. Yeah, about that... too advanced for my current physical abilities. I tried and will continue to modify until I can follow what they're doing. But, I darn near killed myself, and my cat - trying to do all that hopping around.

And update on returning to the gym = I walked over at lunch with a friend, to our corporate gym to make sure our accounts were still active. After so long, you have to re-apply to gain access. We made it. We hadn't totally been shunned. Going on Monday, after work to hit the weights. It's time.

120 stairs to my floor, at work. At least twice a day. Medic! Security! Beyoncé? 



  1. Girl, hang in there! I admire your tenacity despite what all you're going through. Make sure you are checking and addressing these stressors. Don't take on more than you can handle. Congrats on the weight loss. I continue to root for you, mama!

  2. I am am going through something similar. One thing after the other comes up. I can't seem to catch a break!!!! I can't focus on much else, let alone diet or exercise. I'll get there one day staying on track even when life isn't going as I want it in other areas. You rock though, sis! Keep going and remember all these storms SHALL PASS!

  3. **HUGS** You're doing great hun! Keep your head up and in the game!

  4. Girl, I know that stress life. But you said the key words--even though you can't control the crazy around you--you can certainly control your food intake and getting healthier--thank goodness for that!! Those stairs look brutal. Good for you for taking them every day :) You have given me some new lunch ideas--how is that beef soup?? I especially need something like that for these cold behind days in NYC!

  5. Will definitely keep you near the cross. I know how it feels to always be stressed about one thing after another. Congrats though on being down 2 more lbs and sticking to your diet and exercise. Thanks for stopping by YUMMommy!